Pastel-y Dreams

Kashmir... I have grown up with willing it to be a part of India! it was before too; yes! but somehow I don't think that was just enough. and yes, possibly our neighbors have the same dreams too... but the thing is... u cant erase what the mindset has been when it has been there for decades! Jammu and Kashmir or J & K has always had a troubled and flawed sort of starting up since the divide! and i think at the time of independence the ministers were willing to do just abt anything to bring Kashmir to either of the two countries and somehow when India won, there were repercussions; which i think wud have been there even if Pakistan had taken it... there have been wars for it and they r still going on in some form or another what the bad thing is: is the delay that was made the article shud have already been abolished long before, after been looked at by the wining governments them and they didn't its all the years of oppression of not feeling as an integra...

soooz, over the course of my teenage years I wasn't really into Punjabi songs which really showed the lack of my brain cells, cebause Punjabi songs r the bomb... and when u r actually a Punjabi and get the language and still havent listened to the epic songs, it really speaks of ur failure as a human but like it wasn't my fault... i had grown up in the environment where speaking Punjabi was not something someone of my status/class/caste was supposed to do!! my great-granddad had weird ideas... idk it is so bad that i dont really have a Punjabi accent so i am not really comfortable speaking it in regular conversations... like i can read and write the language but my accent sucks... it sounds like the wannabe accent of bollywood actors... (also y dont they use actual Punjabis for the scene??) but like my sister has a nice accent and we r letting her delve into the language and explore it, as long as she speaks Hindi in home and public settings... some habbits r hard to g...

The main thing to know in this scenario is whether its a mouse and a rat? taking google as the first option of rescue the difference between either is: "When it comes to ears,  mice  have large, floppy ears however  rats  have larger ears in size compared to  mice  but not in respect to their body size.  Mice  also tend to have long, thin tails with hair but  rat  tails will usually be hairless and scaly." but also who has that level of patience to notice or care??!! because not ME I had this encounter recently in the office! as soon as my dad left the mouse or rat came out of its hiding place (notice the use of it because honestly if i cant distinguish between a rat or a mouse who is betting for me to do it with genders? also its not like i can speak mouse and simply ask!) and honest to god it was HUGE and SCARY and i wanted it GONE!!!! it ran up to me and looked at me for a minute whole and then ran away!(and this happen...

before i got the glass contraption to assist me to see; i used to think as had been drilled in my head by good old bollywood that wearing glasses is a bad thing; an ugly thing.... and how after removing glasses the heroines let go of the frog exterior and became the "Princess" glasses wasnt a fun thing and people really had names for these and as shown on tv said names hurt!! also identity could be hidden by wearing hideous glasses and Superman clearly point out!! but like since the fateful day i got me glasses i have been nothing but grateful!! this thing lets me see... the wonders of the world in stark clear quality!! my own personal hd quality thingi how do people with good vision manage idk!!!! and for me i think me before the glasses was ugly!! i love the me with glasses!! but like its 2019 wear is self cleaning glasses?? i still remember the day i could see each leave clearly on the tree!! the pavement from a height!! and the faces...

Do u know how many times i have fell down due to the stupidest things and injured my left foot? countless that is what the count is and how i have managed such a excellent feat?? merely because i have no sense of balance at all! i once had my papa check my hand eye coordination out by telling me silly things to do and on inquiry it has been declared that my coordination suffers a lack of existence!! i once fell from a foot high stair out side a villa and just lay there for minutes crying out on the floor! i have also fallen from stairs and just while walking also on the road- in front of someone dashing! water has been the biggest enemy! but i am yet to slip and fall in rain!! ah time and a more inept sense will make it happen too!! (and dont fret- it will all be here) are we as a species a balanced species or is just me who cannot walk properly! and never fails to fall down and its not even that i am clumsy that would have been a different context all together i just...

As someone who recently became a 20-year old (yay me!!) you wud expect me to know this but noooo!! like all things in life like standing and sitting or eating... walking is also something i dont know how to do!!  while coming up for the idea of this blog I searched it on WikiHow!! and here is what i found: i mean!!!!! i just stomp my feet on the ground and hope for the best! but this is some hard core shit! also this is not just it; its also the question of: do you walk as a zig-zagging pattern? do you randomly keep your feet near one another and tread onwards? also when you see a random pattern on the ground do u follow it? also what are the hands supposed to do in this scenario? are they supposed to be: at ur side stuck swinging side by side as you go clasped at the back i mean the ways are endless!! also where are you supposed to look? on the ground or in front?? till here i think i have delved my self further into the I-don't-know-how-to-...