Pastel-y Dreams

 It's another year; come and soon to be gone. not to be black mirror-ish but something very sinisterly fabricated all of this feels. (i just finished binge-watching the show) the way most of us feel the same thing, and then it's just its articulation on social media that manifests it and it comes true.  I read this the other day on Twitter that 'this Monday felt the most Monday-ish' and then when I thought about it did indeed feel that way. as if the feeling had just been evoked and come true.  like wishing on stars. does this writing have a mature feel to it? let be in on it in the comments if this is the type of content you'd want for future posts. I have recently come up with a weird problem. It's something related to covid. I had the asymptomatic type of it happen to me. my dad had it and then later I got the mild - a week loss of taste and then came Phantosmia! a repellingly disgusting disease... yes I asked god to give me a disease of sorts to help with my...

I love myself. when I look at the mirror there is nothing I would like to change about how I look but then it's also everything. it's not one singular thing, it's not like I don't like the shape of my nose, but I still squeeze it in hopes it would become thin, and not one picture of mine in any of my social media is without that perfect angle and the pout, that make my chin and neck look thin. and don't get started on my hair.. ugh! there is a solution to all this, I know and that is weight loss. but with the right kind of representation that we now have, I see women of all shapes and sizes be their comfortable and sexy selves. and also I don't think it would be very me if I lost all that extra weight. I have made myself comfortable around the idea that my outer self is beautiful and I think that's powerful but I don't feel beautiful when I look at myself in pics I haven't clicked, and with the unnecessary stares at the mirror. I don't have one i...

My internship submission asked me for an essay on sexual harassment and gender neutrality. I think i did a wonderful job at writing it so here it is:   The laws and views on sexual harassment and gender neutrality are blunderous and outdated. Why we even have these are questionable. When we see shows like Bombay Begums our initial reaction is not goosebumps at the victory and the underlying message and the filthiness one feels when they realize that they could have had a hand at someone feeling like it was okay to harass someone. We turn our focus on the 13-year-old child snorting coke and make it our mission to have it banned. But the way it focuses on the changes a coming of age teen goes through and how there is not enough talk about their changing sexuality is why we need it. We feel that if the harasser is good-looking why was the harassee having any qualms at the notion of being harassed, they should feel wanted. And if the harassee is good-looking we talk of how it is becaus...

 a month of 2020 2.0 is finally over. if this was 2020's original version we'd have been in march by now! things that took place in January: (tried to keep it in chronological order, but that shit wanted a break) the US capitol was breached by whites, showing skin color supremacy as they were handled like fina china president of US has finally changed (TW a predator in place of another predator) the farmers did a truck march rally thing to the capital and took over the red fort, doing desh drohi shit and modi's been silent comedians have been jailed and sex offenders roam free twitter accounts suspended things that have happened  in the first week of Feb, 2021 (wanted to put this up after the first week but the month went like 2020) the farmer's protest is in full swing and international media has caught upto it, courtesy Riri. Kangana the Indian Karen is now a national disappointment.  jef bezos stepped down as the CEO of Amazon here's hoping the employees now get ...

resolutions for every new year and always failing to keep them is something sort of a tradition that everyone around the globe follow (being unique is a self-made concept!)  but this year surviving will probably be the main goal. even though aliens didn't appear in 2020, the weird-ass obelisks did and even though the zombie outbreak didn't happen, there is really nothing stopping it to make an appearance!! it is funny how everyone ganged up and hated 2019!! that year was the greatest ever... 2020 made me unmotivated, lethargic forcing and coercing me to fall in love with Twitter!! the bird app is phenomenal once you unfollow the 'sanghis' thus attaining mental peace (really if it was up to them they'd blame the Chinese eating the bat on Muslims) Instagram is really not up to my ally anymore. 2020 for me was not that of pain up my ass perks of being an introvert... but like 2021 my introverted ass gonna tryna be an extrovert!! really helpful if u have best friends th...